For Christmas that year, we spent a quiet one at home. I don't remember a whole lot, partly because I was dealing with a lot of depression. I think the combination of having a new baby and dealing with so many ups and downs with Sam, it left me emotionally feeling spent and empty. I remember not being able to feel very excited about anything. I forced myself, for the kids' sake to go through the motions of our traditions, but it was very, very difficult. It is really amazing how consuming it is when something is wrong with one of our children. It makes all the rest of life somewhat of a blur. I know I survived those days, but barely. And it makes me sad how many memories are just swirled together and difficult to pull forward. I remember that Chipper got a keyboard and Mitchell got a bike. In fact, on Christmas Eve, when we went to put the bike together, it was missing a few pieces and I had to drive 2 hours, to Las Vegas, to get it replaced! I don't remember what Abby got. Sam got a Little People ABC set with all the different animals and Olivia got a little monkey gym thing that she could crawl into and play with. I also remember that year that I bought my husband an ipod, which was the first of any of the iproducts we had ever purchased!
It really is amazing how easy it is to forget and reminds me of why I started this project in the first place! I'm so thankful for this opportunity, each day.
Today was our Christmas program at church and I played the piano for the choir. It was extremely difficult for me, as I am not an accomplished pianist-by any stretch of the imagination! But they were all patient with me, and I got through it, and I really think the program turned out very nice!
Today's freebie is another tag template. I'm hoping that these are coming in handy for a few of you!